Some thoughts...

First of all, it is just amazing how quickly babies change! Yesterday Annabelle was rolling onto her tummy and then getting stuck... and today she is rolling in circles all over the place and scooting her little heart out. I am so glad I have been able to have so much time with her to watch all of this developing!

On that note, I go back to work in a little over 2 weeks. I am just sick about it.

I cannot imagine dropping this baby off for the day and not seeing her for 8 hours.

In my head, I know all of the things that make this okay. I know that she will be fine (and thrive, even). I know that I am so blessed to have had 6 months at home with her. I know that she will be right next door, and I will be able to get to her in seconds. I know that I like my job and get a lot of joy from counseling students. I know that going back to work is the best thing for our family right now. I know that lots of families do this everyday. I know that I will have great support at work. All that being said... I am having a horrible time getting my heart on board.

So, now I am just praying. I am praying that the ladies in the nursery will just love her so much. I am praying that I just feel a sense of peace about leaving her. I am praying for her health starting daycare in the midst of flu season. I am praying for the strength to get it together and stop crying every single time I think about it. I am praying that I can get through the first few days of work with a little bit of poise. If you think about us in the next few days, send a couple of prayers our direction!

So, here is to enjoying the last days of maternity leave with my sweet girl and hopefully coming out of all of this a little stronger than before!