A new year.

This past year gave us a run for our money - first pregnancy, first (and hopefully only) c-section, first time being parents, first time learning to nurse a baby, first time taking care of an infant, first time going back to work as a mom, first time doing daycare. It was the year of new life and new experiences. It was my favorite year to date being that it resulted in our sweet pea.

The year was filled with love, laughter, joy, and precious memories...but it was not necessarily an easy year. It was hard in the way that was really so wonderful that you feel guilty saying it was hard.

I spent a good amount of time struggling under the crushing weight of anxiety around returning to work. I have never had my thoughts & emotions so consumed by one thing before. Still, with two months behind me, I cannot allow myself to think about it without tears. Yet, it is getting easier to let go of my "ideal" and grasp onto the path that I am on right now. It may not be my permanent path, but it is my current one and it is pretty wonderful too.

So, here is what I want for myself and my family in 2010. Actually, it is more than what I want...it is what I AM going to do.

I am going to find purpose and peace in being a working mom.

I am not going to spend the precious hours that I do have with my

daughter mourning that fact that I do not have more.

I am going to soak up every minute I have with my family.

I am going to spend more time investing in my friendships.

I am going to spend more time working on my "inside" and my spiritual life.

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Jesse and I were talking last night about how this year is just going to be fun. How could it not be with our sweet Annabelle!

So, here is to 2010 - may it be a year of growth, fun & adventure!